Five Minute Friday – Begin


It has been awhile since I have joined up with the wild bunch of writers over at Lisa-Jo’s place for Five Minute Friday. A time when we sit and write for 5 minutes, unedited. Today is the last time we will meet with Lisa-Jo and Kate is now taking over the reins…I have been blessed by this FMF community and am so grateful that Lisa-Jo followed God’s plan in starting this link-up party so many years ago. Will you join us?

Today’s prompt is: BEGIN

I sit this morning not really sure where to begin.

It has been a tough few weeks, ones where I have had to examine parts of my life and my heart that at times seem so broken.

The hurts from our past never seem too far away, and while God has redeemed so many of the broken pieces of my life…there remains parts that still need some “fixing”.

And to be honest I wish it were different.

Doing the tough heart-work isn’t easy and I honestly wish that it were. I want to be able to change old behavior patterns with a simple prayer. My heart is in the right place, so it should be easy, don’t you think?

The task seems daunting, and I am not confident that  I can ever change. I feel stuck and the words, while swirling in my mind, don’t seem to want to come out appropriately.

How do we begin again?

And then I hear a whisper, His calming presence.

I don’t have to figure it all out right this moment.  I just have to be willing to begin to place one foot in front of the other and move forward. Praying, trusting, desiring to follow His will in each tentative step.

He will guide me, the refining will not come easily, but it will come.

But I have to take that first step and once again begin to place my everything, even the ugly parts of me, into His loving hands. My prayer is that some day I can glorify His workings once again here.

Trusting in that today…



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0 thoughts on “Five Minute Friday – Begin

  1. Mary

    Praying with you for God to give you the strength to take each step you need to make the heart change you desire. Thank you for sharing your heart & struggles. ~Mary

  2. Meredith Bernard

    Oh, Kirsten, you ARE glorifying His works right here in this place, right here today. Don’t discount your words and your heart. I hear you. I feel you. I am so. much. like. you. My heart is in the right place, but ever so slow to actually change…it seems. But maybe in these words of offering, we are in that process and we just don’t always see it? Yes, we are being refined. Slowly. But surely. So glad I found you in this on-line world…and believing God has much bigger plans for you than you can even imagine. xoxo, Meredith

  3. Stacy Voss

    Ah, sister-friend, I read your words and just sigh along with you, that “I so get what you’re saying.” Yes, the pain. The suffering. The hand of God. Thank you for being real.

    Many blessings on you.

  4. Joanne Viola

    Kristin, beautiful post written with such transparency. May I just say…. you did begin! Change will come as you have placed yourself in His hands. I think at times, our new beginnings occur without our even realizing it as He is always at work in our lives. And I am speaking to myself as well as I wait for my beginning too. Prayed for you before commenting. Blessings!

  5. Beth

    I feel your heart here, Kristin. The wishing it were different . . . the refining. That is did happen with a simply prayer. But yes, we keep trusting Him. The work he began in us, He will finish. Beautiful post.
    Much love. xoxo

  6. Michelle

    Oh beautiful girl… I’m right there with you. Today, right now, I’m in that spot and decided to read some postings to help me process my own thoughts. Your post was the first one I clicked on. His timing is beautiful. I fell into that comfortable, familiar place last night and woke up again there today – wishing things were different, wishing I could change. Your words are so true – one small step at a time. Praying for both of us today.


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