There are days like this every so often and while they come less frequently than they did in the past…they still come. Days where the sky seems darker, the world colder, and it feels like I am just fighting to stay in the boat.
When I was around 10, I climbed into the boat after Him for the first time. Believing completely that life would be smooth sailing from that point on. He was in fact Jesus and now that He was in my heart He would make everything ok. Right?
But the clouds rolled in and the sky grew dark, the rains came and I felt alone.
Where was He? It was though He had abandoned me!
Matthew 8:23-24 “And when he got into the boat, his disciples followed him. 24 And behold, there arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being swamped by the waves; but he was asleep.”
Instead of reaching out to Him, I jumped ship…it seemed the safer thing to do for some reason.
When I was in college I climbed into the boat after Him again.
I was re-committed, was on fire and filled with passion. I wanted to make a difference because of Him.
But the world had its grip on me and I was weak….it was easier getting out this time. It wasn’t that He had let me down…it was that I knew I WOULD let Him down. Instead of face sure failure…..I went my own direction.
And then one day, after years of heartache. Years of blame and pointing fingers, of not taking responsibility for my actions and feeling the black hole in my heart devouring me I threw myself into the boat once more. This time in sheer desperation.
I started to break down the walls that I had built, started to see God differently.
A relationship developed and for the first time I was being real….well as real as I was able. But I was committed to getting there, to finding that pathway to peace in Him.
When another storm hit, it was unexpected.
Wasn’t I doing everything”right”? Why did I deserve this?
Matthew 8:25 “And they went and woke him, saying, “Save us, Lord; we are perishing.”
Save me Lord….why are You seemingly alseep?
Matthew 8:26 “And he said to them, “Why are you afraid, O you of little faith?” Then he rose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm.”
Ye of little faith am I….
Do you see the promise in these verses?
Such a well known story but just now….seriously I am not even kidding it hit me just now, a revelation that I had not considered…
In spite of our lack of faith HE CALMS THE STORM ANYWAYS!!! (<==== Click to Tweet)
My hands are trembling right now, I have never seen these verses in this way….
He IS there. In all of it He is there.
The storms will come, it is a matter of fact. But God who is powerful and mighty and sovereign and merciful WILL calm the storm.
He is not relying on my faith or lack there of to get things done.
He uses these times to teach me about who He is and that in it all He is faithful. Regardless of how I feel about Him or my situation.
Friends many of you are under attack right now. I have been in prayer over and with friends who are facing battles I can’t imagine, and yet they are staying in the boat!
And you know why?
Because HE IS THERE.
He always was, He always has been and He always will be!!
I was the one who jumped ship, not God. So let the storms rage because we are NOT sailing alone!
If you are in need of prayer would you please leave a comment and allow me the privilege of praying for you today. We are in this together!!
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