Dreaming, stepping out in faith, takes risk. And there have been times when I have asked myself if it is worth it.
Not everyone is going to support our efforts, or understand them. I think it is pretty safe to say that here in the Midwest – blogging is a bit of a mystery. Most of the people that I know, who also blog, live on the East or West coast. But here in the great state of MN I find fewer of us filling up the www.
So when I talk about having a place to encourage women, share my faith walk…well sometimes there are those that just don’t understand it all. Or those that think I am trying to be someone I am not…putting on a show of perfection because I blog about God. (Trust me perfection is not a word one uses in describing me!) 🙂
And I will be honest, sometimes that hurts my very thin skin. I am a pretty sensitive person and can really take things personally…it is a blessing and a curse! 🙂
I have had a tough few weeks personally. I am struggling and growing (I think) and it hasn’t been easy. I am unable to share details but I have been given the opportunity to be a part of something from the ground up. Something I had dreamed about but never believed I could be a part of….
It is scary and overwhelming and jumping up and down exciting all at once. It has nothing to do with me at all – it is all God. And as I have talked with a few other women involved, I am amazed at what is happening and coming together so quickly. Only God…..
But as I step out in faith I find myself under attack. I don’t know what you think about the enemy…but I believe that he is threatened by people who want to share God’s redemptive grace with the world….and will stop at nothing to create an environment of fear and doubt.
Feeling particularly vulnerable last night and honestly ready to give up on it all, this blog, the dream team….I reached out to a fellow dreamer and amazing friend. And today, just when I needed it most her response email came in my inbox and filled my heart with the Truth.
We ARE going to be tested. But take heart because we are not alone and even Jesus is praying for us! Luke 22:31-32 “Simon, stay on your toes. Satan has tried his best to separate all of you from me, like chaff from wheat. Simon, I’ve prayed for you in particular that you not give in or give out. When you have come through the time of testing, turn to your companions and give them a fresh start.”
Jesus tells us that Satan will try and separate us from Him…but He is interceding for us and gives us hope that we will come through the times of testing…and when we do we should support someone in the same situation.
Today I was reminded more than ever that it IS worth the risk. Why? Because community with all of you is more than I had hoped for or imagined. Receiving an email or card of encouragement from a friend at just the right time reminded me that God loves the little details of my life too.
He chose some select people to show me how much He loves me…sinful, hypocritical, broken me. I was in tears at the intricate way this community has been woven together.
Does everyone “get” it? Nope probably not….and honestly I feel sorry for those who haven’t had the chance to experience community in this way. My life is continually changed by it.
Whatever your dream, you are bound to experience fears and doubts and even lies from the enemy. You may ask yourself if taking that leap of faith is worth it?
I can tell you from experience that any pain in the growth periods, the trials and testing, will be so worth it in the long run. Because I have come to see God in a way that I didn’t before…a more personal way and I am so grateful for it!
What are those things that you feel are too risky in regards to your dream?? I would love to hear about them so that I could be praying for you as others have prayed for me!!
And if you want to join other dreams talking about their risky business… 😉 jump on over to Holley’s and check out some of my beautiful teammates posts as well!!