So often the pressures of this life, the need I feel to measure up and fit in, perform at top capacity, be a wonderful wife and motherâ€¦all of it becomes overwhelming.
Do you ever find yourself there? Frustrated, exhausted, and just plain done?
I know that I canâ€™t do it all and yet I work myself ragged trying to do it anyway. I donâ€™t like to ask for help and donâ€™t want to admit that I donâ€™t have it all together. I put on the nice clothes and the plastered smile and I pretend that everything is fine and the reality is, I am dying inside.
I set my standards to what I see in the world. I have made this place my home and I am laboring to fit in an environment that I really donâ€™t â€śbelongâ€ť to. No wonder it is so difficult!
Every once and awhile I pause though, I seek rest and comfort in the presence of my God. I open up my hands as an offering of myself. Admitting that I am struggling and I need help.
Guide me Lord.
I want my life to be a reflection of His grace. That abundant love that He has poured out on me, I want to be that towards those I come in contact with. I want my home to be a place of safety and refuge. A home where the striving for perfection is left at the door, and one where we are daily recognizing who we are IN Christ, BECAUSE of Christ.
I want to be His. Forever His.
I need to remember that this place is not my home, we are sojourners here. With one job really, how can I make the biggest impact for Christ during my time here?
So my focus starts to change as I seek Him. I am learning how to be brave as the unique woman He has created me to be. How to be a light in my home and my community.
Fully His, all for His glory.
And some day I will leave this earthly body and meet my Father in person and my prayer would be that I would be warmly greetedâ€¦â€ťWelcome Home, Good and Faithful Servant.”